Andarix

A Publicly Broadcast Announcement of Love

Many of you may be aware of a certain Andarix, or perhaps you know her as Bidelle? If you already follow her blog, it is probably because of her fandom-renowned artwork. She is also a graphic designer of the highest caliber, and a widely-known video game modder.

More importantly, Tumblr, she is the woman that I love. She is talented, kind, hardworking, brilliantly intelligent, and unquestionably beautiful.

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CLARK.

AHHHHHH

I spent a good 5 to 10 minutes flailing wildly at this.

YES finally not a secret, very good, yes! NOW I CAN BE AS STUPIDLY AFFECTIONATE AS I WANT AND YOU ALL SHOULD SHIP IT. (I expect fan art in the morning.)

On a more serious note, I’d like to take a moment to actually address a few things. One, yes, stop with the hate messages please. This is about two adults that love each other. If you can’t be happy for that, then what is wrong with you?

But on a happier side, I am so glad to have found Clark and have had the honor to spend time with him for the past few months. I have loved his music so much for years now, it seems incredibly surreal that I was even able to say hello to him.

Imagine idolizing someone, even having in depth discussions about their talent to 20-50 people in streams, just appreciating who they are and thinking, “Wow, if I could ever just shake his hand, I’d be satisfied.”

Then imagine that not only did they come and contact you and you blow your first impression by being an obnoxious fangirl, but imagine they come back, half a year later, because they still think you’re great somehow.

And even in days time, I knew he was someone important. In weeks, that feeling only became more clear. We met in person, around my birthday, and the feeling bloomed into something I’ve never felt before, just this perfect comfort where every worry I’ve ever had seemed so trivial, and every insecurity I’ve faced was just ebbed away by this overflowing tide of happiness. It was profound, and it changed me, I knew I needed this. That’s why I’m moving to Austin in a few days, so I can be closer to him, and to change my life for the better, as I now know it can be.

More weeks have passed and seen a couple changes in months, and the same feeling I had before is even more prevalent now.

Clark, I intend to keep you.

…and to everyone else, I’m so sorry for the public display of affection but

CAN’T STOP WON’T STOP HE’S GREAT AND I’M HAPPY